1. "Breathe Me" -- Sia
2. "Accidentally in Love" -- Counting Crows
3. "All Star" -- Smash Mouth
4. "Anna" -- Gunnar Madsen
5. "Drops of Jupiter" -- Train
6. "Everything You Want" -- Vertical Horizon
7. "Goodnight Moon" -- Shivaree
8. "Here's to the Night" -- Eve 6
9. "Iris" -- Goo Goo Dolls
10. "Graduation" -- Vitamin C
11. "Twilight" -- Vanessa Carlton
12. "Hey There Delilah" -- Plain White T's
13. Headfirst for Halos" -- My Chemical Romance
14. "Kremlin Dusk" -- Utada Hikaru
15. "Reason" -- Tamaki Nami
16. "Last Tango" -- Clazziquai
17. "Hold On" -- Good Charlotte
18. "La Rose de Versailles" -- Nemesis
19. "Slow Me Down" -- Emmy Rossum
20. "Singing in the Rain" -- Singing in the Rain
21. "Music of the Night" -- Phantom of the Opera
22. "Locke'd Out Again" -- LOST
23. "Make a Man Out of You" -- Mulan
24. "Kisses and Cake" -- PS I Love You
25. "Try to Remember" -- The Brothers Four
26. "The Last Unicorn"-- America
27. "Why Why Love" -- Kingone
28. "The Artist" -- The Hush Sound
29. "Epiphany" -- Sweeney Todd
30. "My Heart Will Go On" -- Celine Dion
31. "Viva la Vida" -- Coldplay
32. "Here Without You" -- 3 Doors Down
33. "So She Dances" -- Josh Groban
34. "Don't Stop Me Now" -- Queen
35. "J'y Suis Jamais Allé" -- Yann Tiersen
36. "Learn to be Lonely" -- Minnie Driver
37. "Puff, the Magic Dragon" -- Peter, Paul and Mary
38. "A Beautiful Mind" -- Beautiful Mind OST
39. "Haven" -- JJ Lin
40. "Xie Xie Ni De Wen Rou" -- S.H.E. ft. Fahrenheit
41. "Disturbia" -- Rihanna
42. "Finale" -- Dragonheart
43. "Dandelion" -- LFO
44. "Upwind" -- Garden Sister
45. "My Happiness" -- Jin Xiu Duets
46. "Breaking the Habit" -- Linkin Park
47. "Forever" -- Chris Brown
48. "Monsoon" -- Tokio Hotel
49. "Nights in White Satin" -- The Moody Blues
50. "Into the West" -- Annie Lennox

Now I understand that some of these songs may seem absolutely ridiculous to the average reader, and they probably are.  The reason these particular songs have made the list is because somehow, some way, they've made a personal connection to me throughout my life.  Irregardless, enjoy!

I've never been good with relationships.  To be quite frank, I just don't give enough of a damn about the other person.  In addition to that, once it starts to feel like I'm making a true commitment--or if he tells me he loves me--I run away as fast as I can.  I'm not entirely sure why I've turned out this way.  I think it's a combination of three things.

1. Bad relationships in the past.  I've always either been treated like a perfect princess or like they want to change me.  Nobody ever wants to see me for who I am, and I don't know why.
2. I have nothing in common with people my own age, and also, people of my own race.  There are exceptions, of course, but my interests lie far outside the US.  I can talk endlessly about French politics or Taiwanese entertainment, but I put so much energy into learning about other cultures that I feel out of tune with my own.  Not to mention that in some ways, I'm very immature and in other ways, I'm old beyond my years.  For example.  I absolutely place no emotional status on sex.  I could care less.  But I'm still uncomfortable with myself, so I can act like quite the prude.  Or...I've begun my own business, but I still can't drive.
3. Helping others with their relationships.  Because I've seen so many of my friends, both male and female, being hurt by "love" to the point where they can't eat or do homework, I've always considered relationships to be a weakness.  I'm also always the one that people go to for advice, and I'm always right.  I'm not trying to brag, but I am, and it's really made me bitter.

What's the point of this entry?  Well, I finally met someone that I genuinely care about.  Maybe I shouldn't, because we've never even met in person, but that doesn't change the fact.  We met on some silly international social networking site, and really hit it off.  I feel like I've finally met someone who understands me and still respects me.  There is definitely an age gap, but it's never been a problem, AND he's from Taiwan, so we have a lot of things that we understand about each other.

Unfortunately, he lives on the other side of the country and I don't have the means to move.  He can't move because he doesn't have a visa or green card.

Long distance is hard to maintain.  I want to, so badly, because I can actually see a future for us.  I've never felt this way about anyone before, and while it's not romance-love, I really do love him as a friend, and if we could actually see each other, it might progress to that level.  But it's hopeless.  When you don't have anything tangible in common--friends, location, etc--you eventually run out of things to talk about.  It's breaking my heart that I can't make this work, but I can already tell he's distancing himself from me.

And once again, this is why I don't do relationships.  Nothing ever works out.

Ever.

I really need to start updating this thing, my gosh.

Anyway, I have a few points to discuss.

1. The Election
I really could not be any happier.  I didn't go out to Chicago or anything, but my parents and I were in the living room, totally absorbed by CNN.  Looking back, I wish I had gone, but oh well.  Tuesday was my mom's and best friend's birthday, so I already had enough on my plate to worry about.  But anyway, I actually started tearing up during his acceptance speech.  I was terrified right up until the end that McCain would win, well, at least for most of the duration of counting votes.  One thing still pisses me off, though.  I live in Minnesota, which was, by a large majority, Team Obama.  Unfortunately, because our democratic representation in the form of Franken is loud, obnoxious, and all around sucks, Coleman got to go to Senate again.  This means that the House was one seat short the democrats being able to veto filibusters.  *sigh*  And I really hate Coleman.  His campaign ads creep me out.  He just exploits his family.  Over and over and over. 

But, overall, I am content.  Obama won by a landslide, as he should.

2. I really love JJ Lin Jun Jie
It cannot be helped.  Back in the day, I was a HUGE fan of Good Charlotte.  As in...went to every single concert they ever had in my area, had all their merchandise, sent them fanmail, had a crapload of stuff signed, hugged Billy (and his sexy jaw) way too much for my own good...they actually knew who I was, let's just put it that way.  Well, I'm not a big fan anymore, for many reasons that I won't go over simply because it breaks my heart to remember how awesome they used to be.  Anyway, the point is that since then, I haven't loved ANYONE, be it a solo singer, band, or group as much as them.

And then JJ came along.  And I'm reformed my habits, it's just that now they're focused on him.

His music is always straddling the line between dramatic and hip-hop music, at least in my opinion, although there's plenty of pop.  I don't like most of the pop!love songs, though.  "Qi Dai Ni De Ai" is one of the biggest exceptions, as well as Always Online, because it reminds me of my boyfriend, who lives on the other side of the country.

He's also my biggest source of inspiration.  I really can't explain it anymore at this point, but my desire to go to Taiwan is so great that it almost hurts.  That I have to wait two more years to even go for an internship KILLS me, but many people have assured me that travelling abroad is much more enjoyable when you're older and not so tied to home anymore.  I am currently aiming to get an internship at Ocean Butterflies and am more or less harrassing them at this point to let me in, haha.  I mainly want to go to them because they also offer voice lessons and because they're not such an exclusive label like H.I.M. or something.  It doesn't hurt that they also have JJ Lin...Though maybe not for long???  Is he going to HK now???

Point being.  He's inspiration to me because though he was born in Singapore and grew up with English, he made the decision to begin writing songs in Mandarin and moved to Taiwan and became successful and remained oh-so-talented.  I would love to be able to do that.  I'm trying very hard to learn Mandarin right now, and it's getting better.  In a way, I almost find it easier than English.  And although I'm fluent in French, it's nice to get rid of those nasty verb conjugations.  But anyway, my dream isn't to become an entertainer in Taiwan (it would be fun, but I've only seen a handful of white girls involved anywhere in that industry).  Rather, I would love to go into music promotion there.  TW music=<333

3. Life is so confusing
I am really all over the place.  Eighteen has got to be the worst age ever.  I've finally set my eyes on a college, but there's so many things that I want to do with my life and so little time and money.  And since Ann Taylor LOFT is closing in December, I need to get some new jobs, FAST.  My goal is to make at least 10K before I go to college, which is obtainable, but I got to get my butt moving, which is diffuclt in this current economy.  *is once again so glad Obama won*  For example.  I've decided that I'm going for Photography and Digital Imaging for sure...but I'm not sure what to minor in!  Business Management?  Graphic Design?  And I also want to take some advanced French classes and Mandarin as well.  Gah!  When I think about dream jobs, my mind goes everywhere, from underwater photography to acting to working at an advertising company to being an idol in Taiwan (haha, dream on, I know, but I'm drama-addicted), to fashion.  It's a nightmare.  This is why I can't get married or have kids.  There is just way too much that I want to do with my life, not to mention all the travelling I want to do.

Although, I HAVE been watching this drama called Fated to Love You.  People always used to try to make me watch it because it was supposed to be one of the best, but again, my inherent dislike of marriage+babies&plotlines that involve them made me less than inclined.  However, when it came to the part where Xin Yi lost her baby, I bawled like you wouldn't believe.  I haven't cried like that since Titanic.  Maybe kids one day, though I'd been planning on adopting...

That's for the future!

4. Antics in Hot Topic
My friend Laura has informed me that Taylor Lautner and...someone else will becoming to the Hot Topic at the MoA later this month.  Taylor Lautner is the hot new young actor who plays Jacob Black in the upcoming Twilight movie.  I don't personally find him to be my type--I'm pretty much exclusively into Asians, and he's too young looking and his lips are too weirdly defined--but I've never really had too many celebrity encounters, and they seem to be pretty exciting (you know, from what you see on TV???).  I've been on good terms with Frankie Muniz and Good Charlotte and have gotten in contact once with Wu Chun (don't ask, it wasn't as glamorous as I'd like to say it was) and Rainie Yang.  That's it.  I'm not overly impressed by celebrities, but if there's one thing I can look forward to....

IT'S THE RABID FANS!  Psychos.  Don't get me wrong.  I loooove the character Jacob Black, but he's the only thing that makes that series worthwhile.  I can't believe I'm even going to see the movie.  RPattz has got to be the most unattractive person ever and they only enhanced that, and Kristen Stewart has the personality of a slug.  But the fans are so much fan.  I'm going to laugh my butt off if I see any TwiMoms.  Don't get me wrong, my mom has read the series too, but mostly because I forced her.  I will wear my custom made Jacob t-shirt, because it's a lot better than anything else.  Not to sound mean, but...it is.

5. It's my best friend's birthday!
As I already mentioned above.  I shall dedicate this to her:

Happy birthday, Jianey!

I'll leave everything at that, because I have work tomorrow morning. 

Take it easy,
Taye.

Alright, here's me!

Summary

Let me start off by saying this movie was totally and completely scientifically inaccurate, so the summary may seem sketchy.  Naturally, the reason is because it's geared towards younger kids, so I didn't mind.  Anyway, the movie opens with a little robot, our protagonist, bustling about an abandoned, grime-and-trash infested city.  He's been there for 700 years following his purpose for why he was created: trying to pick up trash, though it's in vain.  He is also followed by his trusty cockroach, and despite this friend, he is lonely.  One day, a spaceship lands on earth and Wall-E is introduced Eve, a robot sent from a space colony of the humans who abandoned earth.  Her duty is to see if life is sustainable on the planet.  Seeing as they both somehow seem to have personalities, they eventually fall for each other, and begin a journey to return people to earth, despite other robotic attempts and human lethargy to thwart them.

General Impression :: (9/10)

The rating really may have too much to do with the utter adorableness of Wall-E.  I didn't think I'd ever find a robot to be so cute, but I found myself clutching my arms friend with bottled up, baby-voice cooings.  I really liked the fact that the movie exhibited an environmental theme, because though I have opposing views on global warming and whatnot, I can whole-heartedly say that I believe everyone should attempt to take care of the earth, as it's a given that we're using up a lot of its resources.  It's also nice not to see another critter movie.  I generally dislike Pixar animations, most likely due to the fact that I grew up with 2-D, classic animations like Aladdin and Beauty and the Beast.  I feel that Pixar has a tendency to focus too much on cuteness and less on plotline, but this movie was fabulous.  It had a wistful, thoughtful feel to it, and left the audience with a feeling of hope.  The characters were loveable, though somewhat unbelievable--I'm sorry, it's impossible for robots to have personalities, at least with today's technology.  Didn't stop me from loving them. =)

Music :: (6/10)

The music didn't leave a huge imprint in my memory, but I was so focused on the oddities of what was going on in the movie that I didn't have time to pay attention.  I certainly noticed the "lonely" theme Wall-E had going on, though. and it made me suitably depressed.

Animation :: (9/10)

The graphics were amazing.  I took points off for the fantastic failure of proper proportions of space.  I think I remember the spaceship at one point being about a quarter of the size of the Milky Way.

Hi!  Since this is my first post, I guess I should introduce myself properly.  My name is Taye Drya.  Well, not really.  That's actually just a hybrid of my real name, but unless I know you from real life, it's what I'm going by these days.  I also answer to the nicknames Sour Grape and Peach, both remnants of my younger years.  I am of the female persuasion and classify myself as bisexual.  I am eighteen years of age, freshly graduated from high school and heading into the "real world." My birthday is June 23, making me a cancer.  I am about 5'6" tall with wavy, mahogany hair--there's just no other word for it--and dark brown eyes.  I have a few piercings, including my ears, nose, and bellybutton.  In addition to that, I also have a tattoo on my right thigh, depicting a dragon. 

My hobbies are basically anything artsy.  Graphic/Web design, fashion, reading/writing, performing are my favorite forms of art, though I also enjoy illustration.  I don't play any musical instruments, but I am very passionate about singing and am on a strict (almost) no caffeine, (almost) no alcohol, no smoking diet simply to preserve my voice.  It will probably be in vain in the end, because I highly doubt I will ever use it in a career or anything.  I really love learning languages.  My first language is English, though I am almost completely fluent in French at this point.  I also dabble in Korean, Mandarin, and Japanese, the latter being my strongest.  In the future, I would love to learn Italian and Russian, as well as Arabic.  Yes, I LOVE languages. =)  Finally, my daily necessity activities are cleaning my room--it's calming, like my form of yoga--exercising, walking my dog, and well, working.  A lot.

Favorite music is something that's hard for me to describe.  I basically like anything that's not country, rap, or heavy metal.  If I HAD to pick, the best genres are any kind of rock, pop, techno, classical, and musicals.  Most of my favorite music comes from Asia and Europe.  Basically, this is what's in my playlist: Sia, Goo Goo Dolls, Rainie Yang, Huang Yida, Coldplay, Mamma Mia, Phantom of the Opera, Nemesis, Clazziquai, Utada Hikaru, Epik High, and the Hush Sound.  I'm a huge movie nerd, and I'm open to everything, particularly horror, musicals, and tragic romances (aka dramas).  My all time favorite will always be Phantom of the Opera, though Dragonheart, A Beautiful Mind, and Spirited Away follow close behind.  I can literally list all the TV I watch: LOST, Project Runway, Frasier, Will & Grace, Sex and the City, and My Life on the D-List.  Finally, books!  While there may be authors I notice more than others, I don't really focus on them.  I really enjoy classics, as well as (well-written) supernatural books and historical fiction.  Favorite book is...*facepalm* Phantom, by Susan Kay.  Yes, I'm obsessed.  I also really love anything by Tim O'Brien.

Shall we go through favorites?  Homemade food; potatoes, soup, all those good carbs.  Chocolate soy milk.  Alcoholic drinks are a cross between Purple Geckos and Burgundy Bishops, though I do like a good White Russian every once in a while.  Wolves.  Aquatic creatures.  Halloween.  Fall.  Bebe, Macy's, and Express.  Ralph Lauren...everything.  Strawberries.  French Silk ice cream.  Glamour and Game Pro magazines.  Seattle/NYC/Paris.  Orange and pink. 

Lifewise, I'm taking my time.  I'm not going to college until 2009 or 2010, mainly for financial reasons, but also because I want to work a little first and find out what I really want from life.  I have little to no interest in a relationship, but if I meet the right person, of course I'd give it a shot.  I don't particularly want to get married, but I AM only eighteen.  One day, I would love to adopt a child or two.  Right now, I am a sales associate at Ann Taylor LOFT, soon to transfer to Ann Taylor.  I know, I'm a hypocrite for loving Ralph Lauren, but oh well.  I also work at a photography studio as an editor and graphic designer, and am working on either working late nights as a bartender or opening at a coffee shop as a shift supervisor.  I don't have any siblings to get along with, but I am very close to both of my parents.  I tell my mom pretty much everything in my life.  My main goals for the future are to move to either France or Italy, become wealthy--I've been poor most of my life--and try to give back to the world somehow, like through humanitarian work or something.

Anyway, that's the lowdown on me.  It's much more serious than I normally am.  Normally, people describe me as goofy and silly.  I think it's just because it's really late and I've had an extremely busy day.  In general, I am an independent, aspiring, passionate person.  I love to meet new friends.  I like staying and enjoying a calm, relaxing night; I'm not a partier in any way, shape, or form.  I'm a romantic, but I don't want to go to the extremes of going out for an extremely fancy (expensive) dinner or going on cruises or anything.  I don't know, if you want to know anything more, just ask!

And if you've made it this far...I commend you. 

Take it easy.
Taye.